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What I've Learned

It has been one of the greatest and most difficult years of life. I learned everything is temporary; moments, feelings, people, flowers... I learned that love is about giving, everything, and letting it hurt. I learned vulnerability is always the right choice because it is easy to be cold in a world that makes it so very difficult to remain soft. I learned all things come in twos: life and death, pain and joy, salt and sugar, me and you... it is a balance of the universe. It has been a year of hurting so bad but living so good, making friends out of strangers, making strangers out of friends. I learned that when mint chocolate chip can't fix things, there will always be my mother's arms. We must learn to focus on warm energy, always soak our limbs in it and become better lovers to the world: for if we can't be kind to each other, how will we ever learn to be kind to the most desperate parts of ourselves? Follow my blog with Bloglovin

Giving Grace

Grace. Something I’ve been learning over and over lately. It’s an incredible thing. It’s also a remarkably difficult feeling to hold. It’s completely against human nature to want to love someone when I know the feeling won’t be reciprocated. I want revenge. I want them to suffer. I want them to feel the way I feel. I rarely admit to myself that revenge and suffering is what I want for someone who hurts me, but regardless of what I admit or don’t admit, the feeling is there. Then I take a look at my own heart. A heart which wants to induce revenge on another isn’t exactly deserving of love either. Elyse Fitzpatrick once said “Not one of us is more worthy of God’s love than the other. And if God graded on a curve (which he doesn’t), Jesus ruined that.” It’s an all or nothing type of deal here. Either I’m perfect (which I’m not) or I’m a wretched sinner in need of God’s grace. When I’m mistreated, when I feel unloved, when someone hurts me–I need to realize that my heart is just as full o...