ANOTHER JOURNAL ENTRY | Katie Huntley

If there was a word for each day, today’s would be “disgruntled”… unreasonable a close second. One of those days where I don’t feel like smiling or being jovial. I just want to simmer in my sullen, slovenly mess. There’s work to be done. Website to update, products to add, photos to upload.... And if not any of that, there’s always floors to vacuum, clothes to launder and the untidy things that need to be, well… tidied. And I want to say piss off to all of it, adding that emoji with the tongue sticking out just to help drive home the point. I could make myself power through, drawing deep from my willpower, pull myself up by my bootstraps and do them anyways. But today, that’s not what I want to do. Today, I want my grumble and scowl and waste my day doing things that are completely and utterly useless. I want to make a nest on the couch so deep and wide I need help extracting myself from it. Not fireman rescuing a kitten from a tall branch kind of help, but the I’ve s...

Recently I have felt the pressure to be more than who I am to other people; to be someone they think I should be. I find myself tip-toeing around certain people so as not to say or do the “wrong thing” that might make them upset or God forbid, offend them. The past few months I’ve done a lot of thinking and soul searching and I’ve come to the conclusion that life is too short, and I am going to be unapologetically me from now on. This is a monumental shift from the girl who cared what everyone thought of her, wanting to be accepted and loved by everyone – to not caring so much about what others think, in fact, not at all! Learning to love myself and to not feel guilty about it, was a long, tough journey that required healing from the inside out. Self-love is not selfish, it’s the complete opposite, and it is as vital as the air we breathe. This was not an easy concept for me to grasp, especially being a people pleaser, but it was absolutely necessary to learn. Overtime I h...